Was so drunk last night...can't believe i still type in my blog haha..first thing i wake up tis morning is to check whether i vomit in the toilet or not..i don wanna get another red card from my housemate..ever again...
It was fun last night adri thank you so much!!but half of it i can't really remember what we were talking about hahha...and i can't really remember how we get home????
it's so hard to find someone who would enjoy all those music with me..
anyway nothing really special happening in my life..that's why i'm bullshitting all the time now in my blog..haha
wana go to bali!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*dreaming*

givE uP~

ok i plan to give up now..since i don have the guts to ask him his phone number...so i'l just gonna forget bout it..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111

thinkinG of yoU~

Keep thinking bout you the whole time..it's been quite sometime since i felt like this..weird~haha maybe i won't be so lazy anymore..honestly really wanna take some effort to talk to you..let you know me..see if you'll be interest in me :) this is so weird for me...how come i keep thinking??haha or perhaps imagining things hahah..it's not like u are good looking or whatever..hmm..sometimes i just wish i could just talk to u but so scary..i'm so afraid..today after u talk to me..haha i was smiling to myself the whole time..silly right?
A fren told me that i should be brave and show my feelings to ppl i care about but i dunno what is wrong with me..i can talk to anyone but just not u..even u are near sometimes i just pretend i didn't see u..haha..ah crazy..
i should forget bout this..too much..if not some fren might think i'm desperate..ah..
don think don think don think...*wink*
target???

betteR~

After releasing my anger with my last two post yesterday...i feel so much better today..less dizziness but still feel dizzy hahah....
so excited bout the watching carmen this saturday and can't wait to go out and party..haven't been partying hard for such a long long time...cos always afraid of this and that..well..don care anymore...
there's a saying..when the boat reach the river bank..the boat will turn straight..haha it's a chinese saying and i can't really explain so if u can't get it..just forget it..or leave a comment!!!hahaha
thanks camille for ur sms..really appreciate it my fren and miss ya a lot..but pls do not forget to settle the place we are staying for the coming semester ok????
had a nice dinner with a fren today..four dished for two of us...great!!!!it's been so long since i had proper dinner..i know you might not believe it because the size of my body..well it is true :P
suppose to have offday tomorrow..but..i gotta work..well whatever...work is work..it's for my working experience i guess....huh!!!
whatever......i should get a target....hahah
nites~

can'T thinK oF a titlE~

oh i really don wanna give a fuck anymore...for several months i've ignore my own blog..and now i'm writing two post in a row...pls...i really need to stop suppressing myself...why oh why...sorry for the ppl who read all this bullshit...but now i'm sick and i can't really think but yet my brain is having so much things that i cannot express out verbally..so this is where i pour it all out!!!!
if now you are thinking "cut it out, ming" well i don give a fuck!!!!!
i've been suppressing my idea, my feelings, my emotions, harsh words, my words and myself for so long(verbally)...i can't do this anymore..what is wrong with me??
oh gosh...tis is crazy..i'm getting crazy...the world is crazy..
with all this crazy things happening around you...and i dunno why i care so much bout what ppl thinks about me..or what they gonna tell the "boss" about me...or what did i do wrong that she hate me so much..well i don give a damn anymore..
i'm sorry if i'm noisy or lazy or dirty or if i didn't do my work properly or having an attitude problem called moody...
well that is what you think and you know nothing...zero thing about me...for i don even know myself sometime..so why you bitching bout all this stupid things...
from now on...and i know this is gonna sound selfish...but i'm not gonna be young anymore well actually i am not young anymore!!!! i don wanna give a damn about the people who is just gonna pass by my life anymore!!!!!!
me!!!!i don give a fuck about any of you!!!!!
cos i know you don care as well..with all your fakeness...ah...fuck fuck fuck!!€!!!!!!
right now i really wish i can shout so loud that even ppl in malaysia can hear it!!!!!cos i'm typing so hard on the key pad....
ah!!!!crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

chopsticK~

why am i so retarded??why can i always not find the better to describe my own feelings?haiz...since i've been in london i had so many things and so many ideas on my mind that i dunno how to express out..so it end up i keep on thinking and thinking when i'm alone at home...when i try to argue about something with someone..i get stuck..i mean my brain and i don have enough vocabulary to argue what i wanna argue...so end up i say nothing..and when i go home..sentences and sentences keep flowing out in my brain but i loss the chance to express it...
i dunno..what define a person????how can u show ur idea or ur personality through??would anyone even care..especially ur "boss"..they told you that they wanna hear your thoughts and what you think bout things in the workplace...but i don think so...it'll end up you getting into trouble or something..haiz..this is crazy what am i doing???
i'm suppose to be doing something i would love doing!!!!!what the hell is wrong??
why can't i speak out my mind???i can't stand it anymore... gosh!!!
BTW there is no right or wrong way of holding a chopstick...but there is a correct and incorrect way of holding it...it's a chinese thing ok????
ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!