promisE is a promisE~

Found a poem that was written for me by a close friend...He gave it to me long time ago...and it always cheer me up a little when i feel blue...

During these darkest hours
When i feel all alone and empty
All i do is call out your name
A warmth feeling surrounds my heart
I feel your presence once more

Though you may be distant
And my heart aches from missing you
I conjure you up when i need you the most
The words, the mails, memories of you
The dream of you comes alive
You will always be by my side

Nothing can ever stop me from
Cherish you the way i do
My love word is true
I will always be with you
We shall never be apart
I hold you closest to my heart

Last time i heard from u, u told me you are very happy....happy for ur own future...i pray for u my friend..you've been through a lot and things are coming into pieces...I wish for ur happiness :) Thank you my dear friend... Dee, a great life lies ahead for u...gambathe neh!!

OBS~

Found this when i was throwing stuff away...wanna keep it as a memory..during the outward bound school...something like a 10 days away from civilization and stamina challenging camp...i'm the only girl...haha..here goes:

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Listen to the story of the 6 of us
Story of fun and pain
You'll probably hear this for the next few days
So why not come and join us now

On the 1st day of OBS,
5 guys came first, there was Kush, Judd, Jin, Wei, Wow
And there was a girl
First we were shocked, and she went Oh! God!
So it was our first day

On the 2nd day of OBS,
We learnt to tie knots
Went to the rope course
She challenged us and outshine all of us

On the 3rd day of OBS,
We learned to set our tents
Went for a kayak, got ourselves in mud
And we all learned to use a compass

On the 4th day of OBS,
We kayak to Pangkor
Sea's were choppy
Everybody feeling sick
But finally we reached Telok Seladih

On the 5th day of OBS,
Repelling was so funny
Wow-wow became a Tarzan
He got tangled up
And he fell down like a monkey

On the 6th day of OBS,
Hiking was so scary
Went up in zig-zags, nearly got lost
Carl said "almost there"
But we end up in a wild boar's land

On the 7th day of OBS,
Kush woke up next to a wild boar
He was shocked, it was scared
And they both ran the opposite way

On the 8th day of OBS,
Solo camping kills
Short of wood, fooled by the rain
And came out like a skunk

On the 9th day of OBS,
We are gathered here
Having a BBQ, enjoying ourselves
Telling you our story
And we still have one day more.

las horas pasan, pero el dia es el mismo

..........time passed but the days remain the same

here'S thE thinG~

Cannot lie to myself anymore..i really do miss u even though i try to deny it...sometimes i really do wanna tell ppl and myself that i regret i've met u...cos u turn my world upside down...u make me have feelings like this again...but actually..i guess...i am in some ways glad that i've met u...u are a wonderful person...in ur own way...which i seems to like so much...the sad thing for me is...i am not the one person that u give the key to your heart to....
i really do still miss you...time will pass and i hope time will heal...now i guess i should pull myself from being in denial into feeling the feelings i have...let myself feel for something....and i guess i'll be better in time...be a better person...physically and mentally...improving....
i can't listen to the song 'last request'...reminds me of u....n i didn't get my last request...as usual.. :P
thinking...thoughts...realizing......priority...
you are right...i must love myself more....
take care~

alwayS iN mY hearT~

Time flies and is the end of the semester...this semester has been a bittersweet ones....get closer to different friends that you might not even thought u gonna be close frens..know new frens who have made you laugh...don feel like studying the whole semester...was putting my concentration on things that now to me...which seems like i have never had it cos i have never own it..
In life...we meet people from all walks of life...we gather...and we have to separate...cos everyone is going different path...but it is life...there something i like to tell myself all the time "life is full of ups and downs...it's better you go through with it with a smile...or u can choose to drag it through" well sometimes it is hard to smile...but i need to learn..cos life have given me so much...a wonderful family....great frens that i have met in my life...
Frens who make such big impacts in my life....i thank you all....
it is not easy sometimes to be separated from the people you are close to...but my dears...i am happy for you...siempre en mi corazon...i think i start to like this...no matter which corner of the world u are in...i know..u are always there...so am i....
It is a privilege to have u in my life...